Yes, yes, you’re making sense, Mai. (I can call you Mai, right?)
It’s because he’s Killua. Yuki fearing Killua’s anger has nothing to do with her handling him physically because even though he’s stronger Yuki was seen determined to push him or slap him more than once. It’s more about Yuki not knowing how to handle him emotionally/mentally once he slips in his angry coma and a big part of her thinks that he might not be himself again. That he is just going to lose it and shut out and shut her out like he did after the poison incident. At this point of the story, Killua is not only the person Yuki loves the most, he’s also the person she likes the most. Yuki likes and admires him and she relies on him within every inch of her life. She can’t see him angry and stripped down of the person she is used to. She is afraid of his out-of-control state and that he will not be him again. Because she can’t be sure when or how he’ll be back again and she’s not at all accustomed to seeing him out of control. Because when the person you admire the most, the person you rely on and take as an inspiration is not themselves, it shakes you pretty badly. It’s like the rock you lean on crumbles.
So it’s all, in the end, linked to the idea of her losing him.
Sooo sorry for the late reply. Yes, Yuki definitely feels lucky with him, but lately she has been feeling like he’s not lucky with her. Next chapter is going to push harder on her insecure buttons and it will give you a better answer :)
This isn’t the first time I receive a review from a reader complaining that I didn’t wrap up the story already. Some readers are just so worried I might not write a happy ending that every time I write a light-hearted cliffhanger-free chapter they demand it to be the last. I don’t understand. Do they seriously expect the story to end at chapter 46 just because the chapter ended happily? Do they expect me to leave all the plot’s loose ends and unanswered questions and Illumi’s scheming and end it there for the sake of a happy ending? The story won’t make any sense…
What I know is that if you liked a story, you would want it to have a reasonable ending that actually makes sense. If someone doesn’t want to keep reading, they should just stop reading at a particular happy chapter and pretend it was the last… I really don’t understand. Do these readers assume I should give them a fake sense of resolution by ending the story they love even though the plot hasn’t yet lived up to its full potential?
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