Lyra. 22. INTP. Writer. Middle Eastern. Personal blog. Multi-fandomish. Word nerd. Hisoka's hair styler.
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OH MY GOSH. I have a certain place in my heart reserved for the Zoldyck butlers. I feel like they are all “good” people who just got mixed up with the “wrong” family, or so they thought. They’ve all (besides Canary) likely been working there before the children were even born, and had to watch as the likes of Illumi and Milluki were made pliant and easily bent into the world of death. I can imagine Gotoh offering a Illumi a handkerchief or something to wipe off the blood after one of Illumi’s (likely TERRIBLE) “training/torture” sessions, and Illumi just looking up at him with glazed eyes and asking, “Who are you?”
The guilt lasts, and the kids keep coming. Milluki’s training isn’t as horrifying as Illumi’s but he doesn’t really care about life and death and the worth each holds. He looks a bit lonely, though, and Gotoh wordlessly leaves a bag of potato chips and a game console in his room one night. Milluki never says thank you. When his parents find out, they don’t care, so long as all the games have killing.
Killua, though, is different. All the butlers can tell immediately. He’s this little shining light, bright and smiling from the start. The butlers aren’t really allowed to interact with the children unless they initiate it first— which is why Illumi/Milluki never really formed a bond with any of the butlers. But Killua is a bit special. When he’s still a baby, standing guard, and tugs on his leg, grinning. There’s a coin in Gotoh’s hand that catches his eye and Gotoh notices, and flips it mid-air. Killua giggles and chants “Again, again!” and they spend the whole afternoon doing coin-tricks in the yard.
Killua’s first kill happens when he is three years old. It’s a small, pearl-furred housecat. He kills it with prodigious ease but he cries about it for hours on end. The blood on his hands scares him. The cat won’t wake up anymore. Why won’t it play? Did he do this? His parents are furious about this weakness, Zeno casually throws in, well, he did kill it, that should be enough, and Tsubone gently pats poor Master Killua’s head for a “Job well done” but she feels somewhat guilty. Gotoh comes to the rescue and says, “I’ll take care of it.”
The Zoldycks think he’s gonna punish him, and say go ahead. Gotoh carries little Killua to his quarters, and shows him more coin-tricks. Killua gradually begins to brighten up, and then Gotoh tosses a coin to his hand, and he catches it, confused. Gotoh peels open one of the coins in his hands — it’s a chocolate coin! Mesmerized, Killua does the same. Gotoh puts the coin in his mouth and eats. Killua does the same with his.
Thus, a chocolate addiction is born.
(OOC: I LOVE KILLUA AND GOTOH OH MY GOD I-I… I bet there are lots of taboos in the Zoldyck family, especially phrases like I love you. Killua tells Gotoh this when he is five years old, for the first and last time. Gotoh turns away because there’s a tear in his eye.)
The butlers watch as Killua begins to grow close to his younger siblings and take care of them. Even though he’s a prodigy with death, he has this love for life that no one can crush. He is always friendly with all the butlers, and he has this yearning to him. He likes living people more than dead people. He likes people, in general. When he asks to be friends with Canary, it’s the first time anyone has ever shown any interest in her — she grew up a child worthless in Meteor City, always having to earn her keep. But Killua — this little, tiny kid— just wanted to befriend her.
But that couldn’t happen.
She would still do anything for him, though.
BASICALLY THE ZOLDYCK BUTLERS ALL LOVE KILLUA. He is their shining light, their hope for the Zoldyck family. Maybe he can make a change. Against all odds, he grew into the person he is now. It gave them hope for themselves, too.
Um I think you can say that. 1999 Killua is a cheeky hellion and he has a few non-canon scenes that are pure gold. He teases women here and there. He is playful with Mito, he teases a random elevator girl so bad she beats him up, he attempts to steal Gon’s money to buy candy, he talks about blackmailing people in front of Mito and Gon’s grandma, he has a fake ID, he waits for Leorio to leave so he can watch porn…1999 Killua is a whole other world.
Yves Saint-Laurent (via famousfashionquotes)
It’s a gift.
have you ever not liked someone in a romantic way and everything is cool and all then they do something small like touch your shoulder or say something funny and you just kind of freeze and think
i want female villains whose backstory don’t revolve around men breaking their hearts or wanting to be more beautiful than another girl i want female villains who are evil for the fun of it and i want female villains with tragic backstories that don’t revolve around men i want female villains with backstories and motives just as diverse and complex as male villains i’m so sick of female villains who are only motivated by men and girlhate
pairing: killua ო gon
notes: quickfic, setafter the dodgeball match with razor. i like to think gon felt guilty about killua’s hands.
“Does it hurt?”
Killua blinks as Gon folds onto the grass beside him, sitting cross-legged, hands dangling in his lap. His gaze flits to Killua’s curled, bandaged fists, leaving a brittle mix of nerves and wonder to weave through Killua’s chest.
“No,” he lies, and Gon’s eyes go hard. “A little,” he amends, and Gon’s eyes go harder.
At first, Gon doesn’t say anything. He seems to drink in the quiet, and when he opens his mouth, he lets it escapes as:
Hi, guys. The next chapter is turning out to be too long to be one chapter. I’m not halfway done and I’m already pass 9K words. I have two choices, either cross out good scenes or split the chapter into two halves. But it won’t be like the previous times because I will publish the two chapters together on the same day. That way I can make up for all the wait I put you through!
This is just an idea for now - just tell me how you feel about it if you see this?